So it wasn't my running...

So it wasn't my running that caused my lungs to feel like they need to be scraped with an ice scraper. Last night, I had a fever of over 100.5. This morning, it was over 101.3. My throat and lungs are wheezing and tightening.

As much as I really wanted to go running today (snicker...snicker), I decided I need to get the fever and breathing under control.

Hopefully, I'll be hitting the road in just a few short days!

Update on Today's Run

So, I did what I set out to do.

I ran 2.33 miles in 30 minutes (I walked 2/10's of that). Made my goal of mile 1 in 12 minutes. Walked a minute, then ran mile 2 and walked for the remainder of the time. Then, I walked the 1/2 mile home (technically, I did 3 miles, but didn't track it).

I checked out my heart-rate monitor - maxed at 193 bpm's. Avg 168 for the 30 mins. Speaking of that...gotta take it off!

I didn't have any major issues. I did notice that I breathe really loud when I'm not in shape...just an observation!

Still in Training...

Wow. When I wrote my last post, I was talking about running through all the doubts and fears that I've been struggling with. That same evening, I was confronted with some things that I didn't want to hear, but so needed to hear them. It broke me. I feel like I walk in complete ignorance and so oblivious to situations around me. How can I walk and not realize what I'm doing? That is what I've been wrestling with for the past week.

So, I run. I'm running to confront those things. I'm running to think through those things. I'm running to find peace in these situations. Ultimately, God is my source of strength and the sustainer of all things for me, but running, that's my outlet. It's my "physical" response to the spiritual going on around me.

That brings me to today. I have been in the beginning phases of training for a Thanksgiving Day 5k. I will be running with my sister and her husband. I'm not sure who else may be running, but the 3 of us are embarking on this task.

• Treadmill - $725.00
• Running Shoes and a heart-rate monitor - $130.00
• Sustenance - Water Bottle
• Motivation - Kutless on the IPod
• Satisfaction of knowing that I can run 2 miles and not die - PRICELESS!

Today, I'm going outside. In a few minutes, I will don my running clothes, heart-rate monitor, RoadID bracelet and asthma inhaler and hit the road - literally. I'm going for 2 easy miles today. Just want to feel out these lungs - they've not been right since my run yesterday. I'll leave you with that!

Today...I Ran.

Today...I ran.

It was only for half a mile, but I ran. I got up and decided ... today is the day I will run. I donned my running gear and took-off out the door, past the driveway and down the road. The goal - 1/2 mile. Run straight, run hard. No slowing. No complaining. No worrying about the burning tightening in my chest from my lungs. Just run. And that's what I did.

My heart was racing. My lungs were wheezing...my breathing, labored. But that's ok. Now that I'm at home typing this blog (and catching my breath), I realize "THAT WASN'T SO BAD!".

I've been fighting with some "demons" in my mind and in my body for way too long. It's time to stop allowing them to control me and take control.

Man's biggest fear is not heights or depths, not spiders or bees...it's what's inside them. My biggest fear is facing my own thoughts, my own fears, my own insufficiencies, my own incapacity to accomplish anything. Something about sitting in your home for hours, days, weeks, even months...there's no more running away...it's time to face my biggest fear - MYSELF.

That's what brings me to where I'm at today. I'm facing my fears and failures. I'm no longer allowing them to cage me inside my own self. It's time to get out - TO RUN - to push through the fears and even the pain...to find in the end, I am not a failure. I am not caged...

I AM FREE!

Running...Again.

Today is the first day back of running since I injured my seismoids back in ... I don't know when. It's been a few months.

So, I decided this time, we'll do it right.

I went to the gym. Put on my running shoes with the orthotics (boooooo!) and got on the treadmill.

• 4 minutes walking at 3.5.
• 1 minute running at 6.0.
• 4 minutes walking at 3.5.
• 1 minute running at 6.0.
• 4 minutes walking at 3.5.
• 1 minute running at 6.0
• 4 minutes walking at 3.5.
• 1 minute running at 6.0.
• 2 minutes at 3.0

STRETCHING.

I checked my heart rate right after each 1-minute run - avg 168/169. 1 minute later - around 135/136. Not bad.

The 1 minute of running did not leave me winded or gasping (inhaler was at the ready, just in case). I didn't feel any pain anywhere. No soreness.

I will do this again, same pattern in 1-2 days. If all feels the same, then we'll increase the running and decrease the walking - slowly...

My tendency is just to jump right back in with both feet. That's probably why I've had so many injuries over these past few months/years. I don't ease into anything...so, I've decided I will follow the "experts" advice (those editors at Runner's World and various other resources) and ease back into running over a few weeks period of time. Of course, I will heed the warning of any trouble-spot in my body that is reminding me that I'm over 200 lbs and shouldn't be doing this...but, then again...

Over 650 Calories in 45 minutes!

No, that is NOT the number of calories I consumed...

That's the total number of calories burned while using the Arc Trainer at the gym. I also added 60 stomach crunches on the ball with some stretching. I don't know the calories burned doing that, but 650 calories...that's everything I've eaten so far today!

I've been trying to add more cardio to my daily regimen. I'm attempting a 45-min cardio session daily, whether it just be walking, running or using one of the machines at the gym. I'm trying to boost my calories burned. I'm just trying to shake it up a little and see if it will make a difference. .
The scale says no. But,
...my pants are a little looser...
...my spandex are not hugging on so tightly anymore...
...and all those vericose veins in my one leg are sticking out more than I've ever seen them. (ok - so that's not so encouraging other than the fat that was hiding them is gone.)
...my legs are thinned out.
...my arms are starting to get some muscular definition (not a lot, but it's a start).
...I have a chin and a neck - 2 separate body parts :)

So, I'm feeling stronger and my body is getting stronger. Now, let's go blast some fat and see if we can't get some of that outta here!

Where Have I been?

So that may be the question that some of you might be asking...

I'm unemployed!

As much as one might think, "Oh, she has so much time on her hands." But that's so not true. There's so much to do...house to clean, studying to do, hobbies to work on, shopping to do, organizing, budgeting, going to the gym, time with God, working on Farmtown...ok.

I don't know what to do with myself - to be honest. I have focused on getting all the requirements completed for my credentials. I finished all the studies and passed my exam. Now, I have some "Mentor" requirements that I need to work on. The question is: WHAT's NEXT?

My answer: "I HAVE NO CLUE!"

I'm taking it day by day at this point. I'm trying to focus on those things that are important to me..."exercising" my spiritual and physical muscles. That's pretty much my focus at this time.

I continue to look for employment, but not vigorously.

I want to look for a missions trip or internship to fill my time.

I want to keep hitting the gym and focusing on my physical strength.

I want to keep "hitting" the Bible and focusing on my spiritual strength.

Well, that's what I've been doing.

Maybe soon, I'll get into a routine and figure out what exactly this time is purposed for me to experience!

A lot of Changes...

It's been a few weeks since I last posted. A lot of changes...major changes...have happened in my life.

First, my seismoids are back to normal. I have been "easing" back into a physical activity schedule (heehee - I don't ease into anything...)

Second, my vacation was wonderful. After a week of pop-tarts, sugary cereals, ham sandwiches, doritos, hot dogs and s'mores, paddle-boating, fishing/crabbing, swimming in the bay, walking...walking... walking...I have lost 3 lbs! I couldn't believe it either. Usually, I return from such trips and need to fast just to "clean-out" from all the junk I've consumed. This time, I did a dance of joy on the scale in disbelief. In fact, I've kept off those few pounds and added another just this week! For me, that's awesome. I haven't lost a pound since January. In fact, I've put a few (just a few) back on. I am ecstatic!

Third, I got laid-off earlier this week. One might think this would throw me into a deep-spiral of depression, sleeping, laziness and over-eating of junk-food...but quite the contrary my friend! After being let go (which I was so expecting it to happen and wasn't emotional about it at all), I went straight home, put on my gym clothes and hit the gym for 60 minutes of cardio. I came home and spent 2 hours studying for my final class and then set-up a schedule for my rest of the week. Now, I laugh at the people who schedule their days...at least, I used to. I understand - I UNDERSTAND NOW!

I have been going to the gym everyday about 11:00 a.m. I go for 1-2 hours and hit cardio hard. I have set-up a 1-hour personal training session twice a week (I already paid for them). So #2 this week is later this morning. I figured this is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity that I have to focus on my goals and my goals only.

So here's how I'm using my time:

• Daily Quiet times after a healthy breakfast and the Today Show.


• Housekeeping (I mean the major furniture moving, touch-up paint and redo the caulking around the tub type of housekeeping).


• The Gym (1-2 hours)


• Completing my studies to become a licensed-minister (only 1 course left and a major exam that must be completed in the next few weeks).


• Spending time on my much-neglected hobbies: gardening, learning bass guitar, photography and painting (see picture I took of the sunflower I am growing)

Alright, I've got a schedule to keep. New posts and continued updates forthcoming...

Seismoiditis!

So I've left my faithful few (both of you) hanging over these past few days...

I have seismoiditis.

Basically - I have inflamed seismoids from overuse (running) and abuse (overweight). If your immediately going to thoughts of hemorrhoids or some other nasty disease - CEASE AND DESIST! I have added the token picture of the seismoids below - they are 2 pea-shaped bones at the bottom of your big toe (also known as the ball of your foot). They are embedded in the tendons that run the sole of your foot. Apparently, dancers, women (or men) who wear high-heeled shoes and runners (increasing their mileage too quick or running up hills) put a lot of pressure on this area of their foot. Once the tendons become inflamed (flaming mad at you for making them work so hard), the seismoids become tender and oftentimes, fracture.

Thankfully, I do not have a fracture (4 x-rays of various views of my seismoids have proven that fact). They are just inflamed.

So what does that mean? Well, for starters, no more running for awhile. In fact, I'm on limited weight-bearing activity until 7/7. I also have this fancy, snazzy foot pad that I wear when I'm awake that takes the pressure off the seismoids. It's nothing special, I have it taped to my foot in my sneakers - no one knows...

Thankfully, I don't have to wear any Dr. Scholl's-style orthopaedic shoes with velcro straps! That would just be wrong on so many levels...though, there's nothing wrong with them except that they make your feet look REALLY BIG!

For now, I'll faithfully attach my foot pad to the sole of my foot each morning and obey the Dr's orders - no running! (or any other weight-bearing activity). I can walk - which I do, because I don't yet own a segway, but then again, I wonder if I can get my insurance company to foot the bill on a segway!

WATCH OUT PAUL BLART!

Seriously though - can I be real for a moment? It seems that I keep getting these ailments in my knees, tendons and seismoids. Why? The doctors are trying to be P.C. and say it's my increased mileage over the past few months to prepare for some of the runs I have participated in. They have said it's the high-mileage I've put in. They've even said it's the short-time that I've ramped up the mileage. But you and I...Yeah, you and I know that it's more than that. Those may be true, but there's a lot of people doing just what I've done - and they're fine. They have no specialist visits or knee drains or special foot pads to show...And they're not overweight.

That's it. Maybe I've struck gold there. America, I'm overweight.

I've been running off and on over the past 10 years in order to lose weight. I've ran 100's of miles, maybe even 1000's on a regular basis to get healthy. Maybe I am healthy. My cholesterol is 171. My blood pressure is normal. All my other numbers are normal...except the number on the scale. It's not budging.

I've changed my diet, increased my activity, prayed ... yet the numbers don't lie - I'M OVERWEIGHT.

Here's my problem - I run to lose weight. I get injured running because I'm overweight. I can't lose weight without running (so I've decided). So I keep running - to lose weight - to get injured because I need to lose weight...and the cycle continues!

So where to next? I wait patiently for 7/7. That's the date of my follow-up with the Dr. Until then...I am going on vacation for the next week and my follow-up is on 7/7. I will report back then on where it's at!

Strained, Cracked or Broken - That is the question.

Is it strained, cracked or Broken? That's the question I want to ask the podiatrist.

It seems I've done "something" to the bone on my right foot where the big toe connects to my foot. It started last week after completing the 5-mile run. I seemed to be fine most of the week until I went running yesterday. I didn't get but a half-mile into my run before it started hurting.

I continued running a little longer to see if it was a pain that I should run through or discontinue. I realized it wasn't going away, so I started walking a little. It REALLY hurt to push off my big toe. SO, I tried some biomechanical changes (technical speak for changed the way I was walking) to see if I could alleviate any of the pain. It seemed to help, so I started running again.

That didn't last long. SO I determined to walk the remainder of the 2 miles and head home. It's the next day and I still hurt. It's a nagging pain that my whole body is compensating for. So, I am waiting for 1:00 p.m. to roll around to see if I can get in with the local podiatrist for an x-ray and exam.

This is kind of a bummer. I've already ran in 3 races this season: a 5-miler, a 10k (6.2 mis) and the Broad Street (10 mis). I have a 5k (3.1 mis) scheduled for this Wednesday night. I don't think I'll be running in this one. In fact, I'm 99.9% sure that I won't, but since I already paid the pre-registration, I'm going to pick-up my packet. I'll "officially" run the 5k when I am cleared.

Pray that I can see the podiatrist immediately. The sooner this is diagnosed properly, the sooner I can get the right treatment, the sooner I can be running the streets again!

Blah to the Blahs!!!

This week has been full of the Blahs!

The weather has been...blah.
If we go one more day without sunshine, I might turn nocturnal! I need to see and feel the sunshine warming my skin. Not only does it feel good, it changes my entire being. Please sunshine, come visit today - even if for only a moment.

My motivation has been...blah.
I went to the gym on Monday - walked on the treadmill. There was no energy in me. I cranked it to 3.7 and put it on an incline for 20 min. That's all she wrote. Tuesday - I had my appt with the personal trainer. She thought it'd be "fun" to add a cardio-circuit for my 1-hr. About half-way, I had nothin' left in the tank. It was empty. I had to dig deep and focus to get through the work-out. I left the gym feeling spent and exhausted. I didn't go at all yesterday. Today, well, we'll find out in a few hours!

Work has been...blah.
Just like every where else in America, we are feeling the slowdown in our business. It's not job-threatening or anything like that, but it's slow. I am the type of person who does things quickly and likes a "faster" pace in my work day. When it's slow, I tend to let things pile up so that I can sit down in a few hours and pound them out. It's been making for some long days!

My LIFE has been...blah.
Don't get me wrong, I've been really busy. Maybe that's what is drawing me into a state of blah-ness. Maybe I need to slow down and enjoy a night of 8-hours of sleep or maybe just an hour of TV, but I haven't had that opportunity. Sunday night - Q&A with the missionaries; Monday night - dessert night with the ladies; Tuesday night - Phillies game (with extra innings); Wednesday night - crash!

Maybe I just need some rest. I haven't slept 8 hours in close to a week. I need 8 hours of sleep. I normally get 8 hours of sleep. Maybe I just need to slow down my pace - enjoy some slow time. Enjoy some "me" time - not to be selfish or anything.

Life has it's ups and downs and can quickly get out of hand if you don't slap on a bridal and slow the darn thing down.

Let's focus now and spend a few days to put the train back on the tracks, slow down the pace and get everything back in it's proper place!

I say, "BLAH to the blahs! It's time for you to go!"

5 ...

5

5 - the number of miles I ran on Saturday...

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5 - the number of cups of water I drank while running 5 miles...

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5 - the placement I achieved after running 5 miles - in my age group!

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5 - the number of hours I slept on Saturday afternoon (not really, but it sounds good - I only slept 4 hours).

5

BEFORE... AFTER...

The red face tells it all...

It's NOT FAIR!

Alright - I have gone into this week as a "Week of Optimism".

I participated in calorie burning activiy 4 times this week (and it's only Friday).

I consumed zero sugars all week - including, Diet beverages, candies, bread, etc.

I ate lean proteins and veggies every day. I had oatmeal for breakfast, ate raw nuts and veggies and fruits.

I read every stinkin' label.

I drank a TON of water all week.

I haven't hopped on the scale all week hoping for that "YES!" moment.

It was more like, "WHAT!!!!????" I gain .4 lbs.

How does that happen?

It's sooooo not fair!

Yet, I persist. I continue on. I press on...

I finally got it!

This is my WORDLESS blog:

YEAH!

DO THE RUNNING MAN...

My Butt hurts!

Usually the day after training, a lot of body parts are sore and tired.

But today - my butt hurts.
I thought my shoulders or upper back would be sore, but no, it's my rump, derriere, backside, heiny, butt, gluteus-maximus (emphasis on the maximus!). I haven't had soreness in that particular location in awhile. I guess that means I must have worked them good!

My trainer whooped me.

In my training session I did the following:

• One-legged lunges (with the other one on a bench)
• Lateral pull-downs
• Straight arm pull-downs
• Modified pull-ups
• Dumbbell butterflies with benchpress
• Squats with medicine ball lift
• Crunches on ball
• Sit-up crunches, balancing on heiny
• Hamstring pulls on the ball
• One-armed Kettle ball "rows"

Today is day 4 of "Week of Optimism". I'm optimistic that my butt's gonna hurt all day. I'm optimistic that it's going to rain all day. I'm optimistic that there's no energy in this tired ol' body! I'm optimistic that I've been doing fairly well in what I'm eating and those pounds are slowly melting of my body (probably more like ounces, but I'll take 'em!). I'm optimistic that water is good for you and that sucking on and spitting out sunflower seeds is good for you. I'm optimistic that if you set-up a popcorn maker in the lobby of your business and offer it for free the entire day - you will improve the morale of an entire company!

I'm optimistic that this weekends' 5-miler is going to be hard, but so worth it!

So far So Good!

Today is Day 3 of my "Week of Optimism".

How have I been doing - you might ask.

GREAT!

I haven't touched anything (that I know of) that has any sugar (except fruit) for 3 days. I have not drank any carbonated beverages - Diet or other. I have been to the gym twice and ran 2.5 miles. I've been drinking a lot of water.

Today, I see the trainer at noon. I have the 5-miler scheduled for Saturday morning. I will need to run another 3 miles tonight.

Hmmm...might I get a surprise on the scale at the end of the week? Guess I have to wait to find out!

BTW - if you're looking for a great low-calorie snack, hop on over to Henning's for CocoPop's. They are made on-site from wheat, corn, rice and sea salt. They are only 16 calories each and are the size of a tortilla. I eat them plain, but you can add some salsa, guacamole or hummus. They are better tasting than most "rice cakes" because they are fresher.

Optimism - the Word of the Week

I am going into this week with an Optimistic Outlook.

I am going to have a great week. I have my meals planned out for today. I'm cutting out all the sugars this week (the refined and even unrefined ones). I'm also cutting all the sodas and "extra" caffeine that I consume.

Breakfast: Organic Instant Oatmeal, Organic Coffee

AM Snack: Rice Cakes (homemade at the Henning's - awesome snack - 16 calories each!)

Lunch: Mandarin Orange and Grilled Chicken Salad

PM Snack: Raisin, Raw Cashew and Raw Almond combination (I mixed it myself)

Dinner: Sunshine Veggie Burger with veggies and a large salad with lettuce from my garden

There is a 5-miler on Saturday that I plan on running. I've already registered. I'm going to take some time this week to prepare and get psyched "out of my mind" to run 5-miles on a Saturday morning!

My gym bag is packed for some strength-training at the gym during my lunch hour: Push-ups, Lateral pull-downs, free-weight rows, squats, lunges, crunches/reverse crunches, shower...that's the activity for my lunch hour. Got to make it a good one!

I plan on putting my feet to the pavement and putting in 2-3 miles later this evening. I have to put some time in for this 5-miler! Hopefully I haven't lost too much of the conditioning from the Broad Street Run!

Well, I really should get back to work.

It's about time!

I had my first training session yesterday.

And - it's about time! It felt great getting my fanny whooped!

I was quickly reminded how strong I really am. It was encouraging to see my fitness level and strength levels (except for the fact that I have weak shoulders) haven't failed since training almost a year ago.

I got in some walking lunges, crunches, push-ups, dead-weight rows, one-legged flamingos, overhead hammer lunges, partner leg/stomach crunches, squats, shoulder lifts, stretching. If you're wondering what some of these are - I named them myself. I have to remember what they are for when I do them on my own - so I give them names I'll remember.

I'm feeling every one of these today. My shoulders, arms, hands, gut, butt, hamstrings and lower legs - they all hurt!

The trainer and I got in some good laughs too. Makes it a little more bearable. Hopefully, I (as well as you) will see some tangible results from these sessions - cause It's About Time!

Encouragement in the DR's Office...

"You've lost some weight since your last visit, Ms. Lucas." - Nurse

"I've been trying." - Ms. Lucas

"Good job - 4 lbs." - Nurse

It was only 4 lbs, but it's a weight loss and I'll take it!

(My last visit was on 1/2/09).

In case you're interested, I have Acute Sinusitis (a fancy term for sinus infection). All my vitals were good. I'm healthy, besides the acute sinusitis.

I've been "Shocked and Awed"!

Last week, I set off to "shock and awe" my body, but my body decided to "shock and awe" me!

I started the week off with a stomach virus. I missed 2-days at work and only went to the gym once.

By the end of the week, I got hit with a minor sore throat, sinus build-up and a general feeling of increased lethargy. I'm still trying to kick that today!

I forced myself to go hiking at Bushkill Falls, which felt great at the time, but by the time I got home, I was completely drained and exhausted. I did enjoy the remainder of the 3-day weekend, but none of it included going to the gym or excessive physical activity.

Today is a new day. This is a new week.

Today is my "NEW" Monday!

It's Finally "MONDAY"!

Ok - so it's really not Monday (as in the actual day - Monday), but it's my Monday.

You know what I mean...

• "I'll start my diet on Monday."
• "I'll go to the gym on Monday."

This is my "SHOCK AND AWE" MONDAY!!!

If I didn't pack it or prepare it myself, I am not going to eat it.

If it's not wholesome and nutritious (and hopefully low-calorie), I'm not going to eat it.

If my calorie intake exceeds the prescribe/set limits I've imposed, then I must work harder at the gym. Today is the day I take back control of whatever it is I've lost and hopefully, we can start to see something happen on that dang scale.

This is not only my Monday, it's my "I'M FED UP with being where I'm at" DAY!

I am taking back control and will finally defeat this monster (this dang monster that's set it's claws so deeply into my core being).

I'm not getting anywhere...

Well, it seems that I am just plain' ol' not getting anywhere.

I am in a routine, a gym "rut" per se...

I go to the gym at lunchtime. I watch (mostly) what I'm eating. But the scale, it's also routine. It's the same ol', same ol'.

It's time for some shock and awe!

I have been in the same place since practically January. It's time for a change.

You know the saying - if you keep doing what you've always done - you'll get the same results. If you like the results you're getting, then keep doing what you're doing, but if you don't...then, it's time for a change!

But saying it and doing it are 2 different things!

Now I need to find my "get up and go". I've hired Sue back as my personal trainer. We start next week. I'm hoping that's a fire that will light my "get up and go". I need to make some changes and they need to start soon.

I don't like plateaus. I don't like sitting still. I don't like same ol', same ol'!

So, I'm gonna "get up and go"...well, at lunchtime that is.

Treadmill Mania!

I've got a new passion - one I never thought would happen.

I love the TREADMILL.

I know, I know. How could I possibly love running on a treadmill. All you do is basically run in place. Your surroundings never change. The only "air" flow you get is from the mini fan located on the treadmill.

Catch this - the gym has cable. Yep, so while I'm running my 10-11 min/mile, I can flip over to the Travel Channel and explore the sites and sounds of Prague or Rome. I get to see the local food-faires or activities. It's educational.

I have been enjoying listening to my I-Pod while watching (with subtitles), the Travel Channel. I have been running harder and longer than when I run outside. Now don't get me wrong, nothing can replace the joys of running outdoors, but if you gotta be in the gym and sweat off some calories, you might as well be doing it on a treadmill.

Plus, I have been sweating unlike I've ever sweated. I never sweat that much during a run outside. I'm not sure if it's because I run harder on a treadmill or that the outside is cooler, but either way, sweat is good.

So, I plan on another 2 miles during lunch today. That's 6 total miles for this week - so far!

If you're looking for me - somewhere between 12 and 1 - follow the smoke that's wafting in the air over the Hatfield Athletic Club. That's the smoke coming from a smokin' hot treadmill. And the person running on that smokin' hot treadmill - that's me - one smokin' hot Treadmill Maniac!

A New Post...

A new post is coming - I promise!

I've been enjoying some "down-time" after 8 weeks of intense training. I am getting back in the grind and working on getting into a normal routine this week.

Today, I ran 2 miles on the treadmill at an average of 11 min/mile. Not bad for me.

I'm working on running 10-min miles, but I get winded so, I only run that for 1/2 mile intervals, slow to 12-min and then back and forth.

I'll keep you updated.

Top 10 reasons to Run 10-miles

Here's my Top Ten reasons to run 10-miles

10. New Running Shoes...

9. Ice Cream! And lots of it!

8. Getting out of "household duties" (ie: cooking, dishes, etc...) - "uh, gotta run 5-miles today" :)

7. Excuse for "Extra" Nap-time

6. Getting to run with 27,000 of your closest friends

5. Post-Run Massage...

4. "Free" T-Shirt...

3. That "feel good" feeling that you donated money for a good cause...

2. You get a FINISHER'S MEDAL! (eventually...)

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...and the NUMBER ONE reason...

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1. A sense of accomplishment that you can't buy or acquire - you only EARN!

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"The miracle is not that I finished. The miracle is that I had the courage to start." - John Bingham

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"It doesn't matter what's ahead of you or behind you, what matters is what's inside of you." - anonymous

A Governor, one mayor and hundreds of Port-A-Potties!

The Broad Street Run - 30th Year Anniversary.

Over 26,000 runners participated in this year's event. A handful of participants had run in all 30 events. It was my first time! Every skill level, every shape, size and color - they participated. Fast, slow, tall, short, thin, fat - we were all there ready to test our endurance.

Some were there to win. Others, to better their records. Then, there were others, like me - we just want to finish, and receive the reward for our time, the placing of a medal around our neck!

I awoke minutes before the alarm was to go off at 4:45 a.m., hopped in the shower and dressed for the run. It was drizzling outside, but felt warm. So, I opted for spandex shorts and a sleeveless running shirt. I downed a 16-oz water bottle, grabbed my gear and headed out the door to meet my ride. I had my "typical" pre-race breakfast of Plain donuts and a Pepsi (don't ask, you don't mess with history here).

Not knowing what the drive or "drop-off" situation would be like, we left at 6:00 a.m. to head to Philly. The drive only took about 30-min from start to finish. We arrived really early. We sat in the car, talking logistics and post-race meet-ups. Afterwards, we headed outside for a quick run to the porta-potties and some warm-up time.

The pottie line took close to 20-minutes. It's a good thing I didn't have to go - really bad. Afterwards, we headed to the track for a warm-up lap and some stretching. They had an organized crew leading us in some aerobic activity and stretching. It felt good and it was fun!

Now it was time for the line-up.

I didn't have any of those pre-race jitters or nervousness that I typically have. I felt good. I was ready to run 10-miles. Other than the dreary gray skies, this was turning out to be a good race. The starting guns went off for the first heat at 8:30 a.m. 22 minutes later - our heat was released to start running. There was a mass of over 26,000 runners - most before me - some behind me all headed in a straight 10-mile pass to the finish line. I saw Mayor Nutter at the starting line. He was waving at the runners as we began our race.

For the first mile, it was just a sea of people. I knew I was running faster than my "practiced" pace, but the pace felt good. So, I held it. The "sea" was dispersing ever so slowly. I started passing people. My pace felt really good. My legs felt good. My breathing was good. I was ready to roll.

I felt great.

The first few miles were rather "uneventful". Somewhere around mile 4, my stomach started feeling a little "off". No problem, just keep running. By mile 5, I was running with an impending need to find a port-a-pottie without a line! I finally found one. Phew! When I started running again (no pottie-humor intended), I realized, I needed to find another pottie - QUICKLY! Whatever I ate for dinner or maybe it was my pre-race breakfast, my stomach was rebelling. I needed another PORT-A-POTTIE time-out. I slowed my pace as I realized how DIRE my situation was. I was not disappointed when I saw the next row of potties.

About 6 minutes later...

I was back in the race, with a feeling of relief and ready to run another 5 miles. As we passed city hall, there was so much excitement. There were hundreds, maybe thousands of spectators cheering and high-fiving the runners as they were passing by. It was the best part of the race. On the other side of city hall, I saw Governor Rendell in a brown "athletic" suit - high-fiving and shaking hands with the runners. Amazing!

That's when it started to rain - harder. My hat was keeping the rain off my face. My clothes and my body were soaked. I felt the urge to pick-up the pace, so that's what I did. Not having my Ipod or a watch, I had no idea how my pace was, how long I'd been running or how long I had to go. I had to depend on the mile markers and estimating the time when I saw the mile splits (I assumed it was a 22-minute delay in crossing the start line).

I knew if I continued at my current pace, I would meet my goal. That's exactly what I did.

As we got closer to the finish-line, I remembered to smile and "look good" for the cameras as I came to the finish. I crossed the finish line feeling accomplished, strong and proud.

I ran a race that I was proud of. I would have been more excited had I beat it by the time I spent in the port-a-potties, but I still met my goal even with those necessary time-outs. My body felt great. I felt strong. I knew I had run a good race.

After the race, I walked the finishers' path to find my medal, get refreshments and meet up with my ride.

But wait...where's my medal???!!!

There was no one there to hand-out medals. There were kids handing out cold waters, but no medals. I figured, "oh, they must be in the refreshment bags at the end." So, I went to the refreshment tent and got my bag - no medal. I walked back to the finish line, but I did not see anyone giving out medals. I kept asking until finally, a volunteer stated, "we ran out of medals. You'll get one in the mail."

IN THE MAIL???

I don't get to proudly wear a medal post-race? I don't get the post-race picture with the medal around my sweaty, rain-soaked neck? I don't get to stare at the medal all the way home as I recall what a wonderful race this was or how well I ran?

No, the whole reason for running the

race is not receiving the medal. But, it is expected. It's a tangible reward for finishing. Mind you, the exhiliration and the accomplishment should be enough, but...I am an achievement-oriented person and love the tangible rewards for my accomplishments.

So, I eagerly await the arrival of my medal by mail. I will stand by, no walk by, no run to that mailbox at the end of each work day looking for the arrival of my medal.

And then, I will rip it from the packaging, place it around my neck and bask in the final glow of my victory as a "finisher" in the 2009 Broad Street Run!

Only 5 more days 'til Broad Street

It's only 5 days away. I've trained. I've drained. And I've trained some more.

My legs are ready. My body is ready. I'm ready.

The weather should be in the 50's for the run - which is PERFECT! The humidity that's been plaguing us will be gone. The sun will be shining - it's going to be a beautiful day for a 10-miler.

Today is light running day. I'll hit the gym at lunchtime to strength-train. Because of the knees and the running, I've been focusing on my upper-body and core. I believe that is what's carried me through this training season. I have a 3-miler to do tonight - between work, dinner and prayer meeting and The Biggest Loser. Maybe I'll skip dinner. :)

I love these training seasons, don't get me wrong, but...I will be glad when it's over. During a training season, all focus is put on the schedule.

"Can't miss a run!"

Other things are put aside. Granted, this hasn't been as bad as previous training seasons. At least I've had time and have been able to accomplish many other things. I do have other interests...gardening, completing my coursework for credentialing, sleeping, learning Bass (just to name a few). But the schedule comes before all else.

I do plan on continuing a regular routine of running, but those distances will be 2-3 miles, 2-3 times a week. No mega-runs (unless I feel like it). I can complete those distances on the treadmill during my lunch-hour.

Alright - time to focus...only 5 more days.

SQUATS OR RUNNING, but not BOTH!

That's what the doctor said.

Tough choice (not!). Who in their right mind would choose squats???!!!???

Sointenly (think Bugs Bunny) - not I!

I say this specifically because I am once again signing up for personal training at ye olde gym and my trainer's favorite form of torture for this specimen is SQUAT THRUSTS! I absolutely abhor the squat thrust. It's more like beached whale on carpet. At least that's what I feel like as my body stretches out in the push-up position. I know she's cooking these up in her gym kitchen for an appetizer on day one.

But nana nana booboo - I don't do squats for no one no more! YEAH!!!

Ok. I should be just a little disappointed or frustrated at the thought of growing old and finallly having 12 years of playing catcher in fast-pitch softball "catch-up" to me. I should be just a teensy wheency saddened by my lack of being able to do all things, but alas, there's no sadness. Maybe I'm suppressing it. Maybe I am just a slight bit happy that my future does not include squats or squat thrusts, or lunges!

But it does include RUNNING (or jogging as the doctor put it).

That takes me on a ranting tangent that I will save for another day. Ok - no, let's address it today.

At what speed do I finally go from a JOGGER to a RUNNER??? I go outside with Running Shoes, wearing Running Gear to RUN. Jogging sounds more like a hobby or something to do while wearing a full sweat-suit.

I may not be skinny and/or muscular. I may not run sub-10 minutes, but nonetheless...

I AM A RUNNER!

Ok - I've digressed. It's now out of me...ahhhh, I feel better now.

Back to where I was...Oh yeah...squats or running.

Although I left the doctor's office feeling a little more confused then when I came in (I felt like they were rushing and basically just doing the routine and I didn't get to ask all the questions I wanted to ask), I knew a few things.

1. My knee will not get better - it's filling with fluid due to overuse/abuse (years of catching and running while overweight don't help).
2. I cannot run and do squats/lunges - he basically said it's one or the other.
3. Stair-Climbing, using the stepper, etc...they are out too.
4. Use Ibuprofen when it swells.
5. He didn't say not to continue my training for the Broad Street.

At least - that's what I concluded from the full 10-minutes I had with the doctor.

I walked away with these thoughts:
1. I don't plan on slowing or stopping the running anytime soon.
2. Maybe if I lose some weight, I will see increased improvement in the form/function of my knee.
3. My God is a BIG GOD and He can heal my knee to pre-catching, pre-abuse/overuse status.
4. I'm glad I don't have to do squats!

Alright, that's my rant for the day. I feel much better.

Thanks for your patience and your prayers over these past few days/weeks.

I have to focus now. Broad Street is in 9 days.

The Moment of Truth (added below)...

Today I will have my moment of truth...I see the Orthopaedic Specialist (a.k.a. Sports Dr) at 10:45 a.m. Both of my knees are still filled with fluid and feeling slightly stiff. I have been using them (it's difficult to walk without them) quite frequently.

I've also continued to run, keeping with my training schedule for the Broad Street.

I'm hoping that I will get the OK to continue to train (Broad Street is a week from Sunday). I'm also hoping that there's a simple explanation / fix that does not involve needles or scalpels.

I will update my blog later this afternoon with whatever is discovered.

Until then, please pray that there is nothing seriously wrong with the ol' knees.

And the verdict is...

I have excess fluid on my knee cap due to overuse and abuse. It seems all those years playing catcher in fast-pitch has finally caught up with me. He stuck a needle in under my knee cap (yes, it's as squeemishly gross as it sounds) and drained some of the fluid. It was a clear yellow color - which is good. So, I can continue to run.

But...

NO MORE SQUATS! I'm so heart-broken and torn about that .. hee hee .. I have to limit the range of motion on my knees in whatever activities I participate henceforth. I guess that means I'm getting old.

This old gray mare aint what she used to be.

So, I guess I'm putting in my 4-miles this evening - that is, if the stiffness from the "draining" goes away by then!

Good-Bye Kristen!

Ok - a little diversion from what would be the norm on my blog...

I am a HUGE fan (literally and figuratively) of THE BIGGEST LOSER. It is the only program on television that I watch consistently. I love hearing the stories, watching the challenges and just generally getting into the "game play" of the program. But the biggest thing, I love watching people transform their lives (physically and emotionally) on national TV.

This season has had it's share of ups and downs, as all seasons, but this season seems different. There's not as much "on-screen" back-biting and just plain ol' nastiness. This group of people seem to genuinely care for one another and challenge one another to do better and work harder. Granted, this is a reality TV show and there is a $250k prize looming in the near future, so there is still the element of wanting to win, but generally, this season seems kinder.

My favorite player to this point is hands-down - Kristen. She has shown an immense amount of integrity and the determination to actually change her life. She hasn't gotten involved in the game play and all the "talk-talk" that happens (at least on-screen). She has just worked hard and done her best to lose the weight and stick around week-to-week.

I was as shocked as everyone else to see her gain a pound last night. It didn't even enter my mind that she would consider "game play" and throwing the weigh-in. I was shocked - just shocked!

Even though she was voted off last night, I don't think that's the last we'll hear from her. She has the potential to affect so many lives through her testimony and experiences. We'll be hearing more from her in the future.

We'll also be seeing her at the finale'. She has a pretty good chance of winning the 2nd prize - $100k. I wouldn't be surprised!

To Kristen I say, "thank you for being real over these past 16 weeks. Your example has inspired me and countless others in our journey to becoming healthier and thinner."

Don't STOP NOW!

I have taken a quick video snapshot of my knee - to give you a visual to the egg-like bubble of fluid on my knee. There's no sound (other than me talking on the cell phone to a friend and the occasional "yeah" ).

I have a massage scheduled at noontime today. It's my first in a long time. I am hoping it's another step in getting my knees healed (and just because I know it will feel good!).

I am also scheduled for a 5-mile run today. The weather looks like it will cooperate, hopefully my knees will too. So, 5-miles, here I come!

I'm still going...

Just because I had to make sure I had legitimate knee troubles, I went for a run on Saturday at ye olde middle school gravel track. I figured if I drove over there, I could quit as soon as my knees felt like they were giving me any trouble. Plus, the gravel track would be easier on the knees than macadam.

5.5 miles later...I decided it was too dark to continue (I had prescription sunglasses on and had forgotten to bring my regular sunglasses). I wrapped both knees carefully and went home. I did a pretty good stretch routine pre and post-run. I wanted to ensure that if there was injury happening to my knees, it wasn't because I wasn't stretching properly.

I actually felt pretty good the rest of the evening. I could still feel a little bit of swelling in the knees, they're definitely not normal, but there was no major stiffness or puffiness. Sunday, just for due diligence, I iced and elevated while I watched a movie.

Today, I went to the gym for a strength training workout. I did a few quad lifts that I saw online to help strengthen the muscles that support the knees. I focused mainly on upper body. As it is, my shoulders are sore from the lateral pull-downs. I should be feeling the muscles in my abs soon too.

I had some trouble getting on the floor mat for some of the ab exercises due to my knee. It's just an odd little growth or whatever sticking out of my knee. It's visibility is increased when the knee is bent - it literally looks and feels like this egg-sized bubble that's going to pop!

Alright, well, until I'm told otherwise (possibly during Thursday's appt), I will continue to workout and run (nursing the knees with some STRETCHING, ICE and COMPRESSION).

There's nothing to see here - keep moving.

Ok - so there's no update. My knees feel better today, but the fluid bubbles are still there. I am not waddling like a penguin when I walk and there's not a lot of pain going up and down those blasted stairs.

I iced. I elevated.

SO, there's really nothing to see here today.

I might get a little "determined", "ambitious" or just plain ol' stupid and do some running tomorrow to see "what happens".

I guess there's no point in whining or complaining if my knees hurt on Sunday! I'll let you know what I decide and how it goes.

Speed Bump!

Did you ever have that experience that as you're driving through a supermarket or some side street going pretty fast and all the sudden your passenger yells, "SPEED BUMP" - then, almost involuntarily, you slam on the brakes as your vehicle slams over the speed bump? There's the moment of "shock and awe" (what just happened) followed by "is my car alright" (assessing the damage)...

It seems that everytime I'm cruising along in my training or routine, a body part yells out, "SPEED BUMP" just before I get some "routine-altering" injury.

That's where I'm at right now!

I have just hit the SPEED BUMP and I'm in shock and awe as I assess if there's any damage.

Here's the deal. The last few times I've been on my training runs, the next day (and days after), my knees seemingly fill-up with fluid and feel like they're going to pop. If I bend them or try to squat - it feels even worse. I know it's not a tear or injury due to the fact that it's both knees.

After Tuesday nights run of 5-miles, I was feeling really good. The run went well, despite the weather (it was rainy and cold). I was able to keep my goal pace and even kick-it up a notch near the end. As the night progressed, my legs got stiff. I stretched post-run. Before I went to bed, I stretched a little more. 2 days later, I have this "bulge" of fluid just the outside of my knee cap that seemingly grows and pokes out when I bend my knee (I really should videotape it).

I tried to sleep with my legs elevated, but halfway through the night, I was done with that.

So, I've done what all good athletes should do - I went to WebMD for my diagnosis. According to WebMD, I either have Gout, RA, Lyme Disease or an Insect Bite. Hmmm... I did the next best thing, I called a sports doctor and made an appointment. I asked for their best sports doctor. They replied with a mid-May first possible appt. So, I asked for their 2nd best sports doctor. I get to see him next Thursday.

The Broad Street Run is just 3 weeks away. The doctor's appt is one week away. I don't want to be stupid, but I really want to run in the Broad Street.

So, I've decided to sit out today's run and wait for Saturday to see how the ol' knees are doing. I'm supposed to run 7 miles on Saturday. If you're an athlete or have ever trained for an event, you know the struggle I'm wrestling with. If you're not - you're now thinking I'm stupid and just need to give it up and go for it next year. I'm somewhere in between - I want to be wise and do the right thing with the hopes that I will still get to run! :)

Alright, well I'm off to finish my days work so I can go home and: REST, ICE, COMPRESS and ELEVATE the knees!

A Trainer each Day...

A trainer each day...helps take the weight away!

That's my new mantra.

I am going to visit Trainer Sue today to set-up some training sessions for the next few months. It's been about 6 mos since I've had a personal trainer, due to financial constraints. I've decided that it's time...

I have been on-track with my 10-mile training schedule. Today, I hit the pavement for 5-miles. I'm out of breath just thinking about it.

I ran 4-miles on Saturday with my nephew (who does not run). I took it all out of him. Felt nice to "beat-up" on my 17-year old athletic nephew. Auntie still has some fire in her! I'm was also able to keep my goal pace of 12:30/mile.

I'm going to try again tonight - 12:30/mile for 5 miles = 62.5 mins of running bliss!

(BTW - I updated my picture on the 10k race - they posted race photos this week and I downloaded mine)

On the Road Again!

Tomorrow - I'm on the road again. I am making the epic family trip - a stop in Tully, Geneseo and then Rochester - culminating in a family dinner on Easter Sunday. I love getting to spend time with all my family members, but the trip can be wearying. Plus, my schedule and routine are completely thrown off.

I NEED ROUTINE!

The good part is that it's only 4 days. I have my 3-mile training run tonight. Friday is my free day. Saturday is a 4-miler (light week). Sunday is cross - Monday is stretching and strength.
So as far as the workout schedule that will be fine.

...but...

What I will be eating - it's anybody's guess! I don't have a good track record when I go home. That's all I will say about that topic.

Let me just take a moment and say Happy Easter to everyone! I love Easter as we celebrate the Risen Christ! Consider finding a place of worship this weekend to celebrate His dying on the cross for your sins. And 3 days later - rising again!

He is risen ~ Just as He said!

Running through the Pain...WHAT PAIN??!!

Last night, I forced myself to run the 3-miles on my training schedule.

The reason why is that I don't feel like running. My legs hurt. My knees feel like they are twice the size that they really are. I can barely bend them. My derriere hurts. The muscles are just plain and tired. My lungs hurt. It was cold outside. I even used my inhaler before running to prevent any asthmatic attacks induced by the cold air.

But guess what? A few minutes into the run, my knees didn't hurt as much. My butt hurt, but that's no big deal. My lungs - they functioned normal for me - thanks to albuterol.

In fact, today, I feel great. My legs feel great. I can even bend my knees without feeling like they're gonna pop. My butt is still sore (probably from riding bike the other day). The wheezing in my lungs is minimal. Interesting.

I ran when my body was screaming no and today my body is bowing in thankful adoration for me doing it anyway. I guess it's true that sometimes, you just have to run through the pain.

Oh, By the way, I remembered to pack my gym bag. That's the first crucial step to getting to the gym. I also carried it to my car - second step. Now, the third and final step - driving to the gym - keep your fingers crossed!

It's been just over a year now...

It's been just over a year now that I've been actively trying to lose weight.

• In March of 2008, I joined the gym and hired a trainer for 10 sessions.
• I trained for and ran a half marathon in late April.
• After those 10 sessions were over, I hired her for an additional 10 sessions.
• I ran in a 5k over the summer.
• Beginning in July, I started going to the gym practically everyday.
• My fitness has increased, as well as my endurance.
• I've lost a few pounds - around 17 to be exact. I am stronger.
• I feel healthier.

If I had to gauge myself, I'm not where I'd like to be but I like where I'm at.

These past few weeks of training for the 10-miler (Broad Street Run) has caused my body an awful lot of stress. I've slowed, ok, practically stopped going to the gym. I've been following the training schedule, as far as running, but that's about it.

This was going to be the week that I started to go back to the gym - putting it back into my daily routine. Oops - I forgot my gym bag (again). That's twice this week and it's only Tuesday. I need to start incorporating some light lifting and cross-training into my schedule.

I brought the ol' dusty bike out of the basement into sunlight for the first time in 3 years. Pumped up the tires, washed and oiled it, took it for a test-drive. Works great! I also brought up the roller blades - also in the basement for about the same amount of time. I used to love roller-blading in my post-college days (in fact, they were my sole source of transportation for a few years). I haven't tried them out yet, maybe this weekend.

Considering most people gain a few pounds every year, I'm not doing all that bad. Honestly though, I didn't think losing weight would be all that difficult. I thought if I went to the gym and hired a trainer and changed up my diet - the pounds would melt off. At least, that's how it seems to work for those around me.

But no, I'm not like everyone else. I have to work harder. I have to push harder. It doesn't seem fair. But then again, I didn't just gain this weight over a period of time, I've been a big girl most of my life. I have a lifetime of weight to lose. When placed in that perspective - 17 pounds in a year doesn't seem all that bad now does it?

So, at my current rate, I have approximately 60 pounds to lose - I can expect to hit my goal weight on: September 7, 2012.

Yeah!

10k - Completed in Record Time!

I finished my first 10k this weekend.

My goal - 1:20 (just under a 13-min pace per mile)
My actual - 1:17

I was darn excited! I have been pushing myself in my long runs to get around a 12:30 pace. I tend to do well the first few miles then slow way down for the middle and pick-up at the end.

There were a few times I wanted to stop and walk, but I made myself continue. I know that if I walked, I could have bettered my pace in the long run, but I decided to continue running, even if it resembled more of a slow crawl, because I was going for the endurance and completion - not speed. Between the wind and the hills, it was pretty grueling in my book!

Now I can honestly say I ran a 10k - the whole thing!

10k is Tomorrow.

I put in another 3 miles yesterday. In fact, I programmed my I-Pod to a 5k - to see what I could do. But yesterday was not my day. When you head out on a run, it doesn't take that long into it (maybe a half-mile) and you know how it's going to go. I was sluggish. I knew it was a matter of just slogging through the 3-miles. That's how it felt - that's how it went. My time was average for me, but I felt sluggish and tired. I'm kind of glad today is a rest day, especially since tomorrow is the 10-k.

I've still had that odd pain in the back of my calf near the crease in my knee. I have no clue what it is. Just when I think it's gone, it comes back. It's just weird. I've been stretching pretty diligently in hopes that maybe it's just a tight muscle that just needs a little stretching. I've been wearing a neoprene calf sleeve to keep it warm when I run - hoping that will keep it warm and loose. It works while I'm running. Maybe I need to wear it all day too.

I'm ready for tomorrow's run. It's supposed to be windy and possibly chilly because of the wind. I'll be wearing shorts, but a long sleeve top. I'm kind of excited about the 6.2 miles. It's my first "official" 6.2 run. I can put it in the record books as a time to beat in the future. It will also be a good test for how I'm going to do on the 10-miler - though the 10-miler is completely downhill the entire way - now that's cool! No extra strain.

As far as any weight loss, it seems I'm hanging onto this 209 lbs. It's just been a battle that I am getting tired of fighting. I'm continuing to watch what I eat and I've been following this run schedule pretty diligently. I havent' been going to the gym everyday, but that's because I don't want to wear myself down from this training schedule.

Any hints/ideas/suggestions or words of encouragement to get me from this plateau would be greatly appreciated!

I'll try to update tomorrow after the run to let you know how it goes. If I don't, just check out my Nike+ Mini. She'll update when I download my run.

Until later...happy running.

What's Changed?

I don't know what's changed...the scale has been the same for a long time now, but for whatever reason, everyone's asking if I've lost weight. Wha????

Yes, my pants are baggy in the butt, but they've been that way for awhile. I'm still wearing the same clothes, but the scale has remained rock solid - almost as if it is a rock and the number will never change.

I'm glad for people noticing. It's a bit discouraging when you feel like you work hard and give it all you got, but there's nothing to show for it. Now that I'm in plateau-mode, everyone's noticing...interesting.

I'M NOT COMPLAINING - REALLY I'M NOT!

The encouraging words are nice. They're...encouraging.

This whole weightloss thing has been a mental struggle for me for awhile. I don't just eat a salad a few times and boom - 5 lbs lost. I have to eat less than 1600 calories and workout at the gym religiously - for months - FOR MONTHS - to see any weightloss. So to have someone notice the hard-work - it's nice.

Now, don't get all concerned that I'm going to breakout in the belly shirts and low-risers anytime soon. I still have some modesty about me. And plus, that would still be plain ol' gross to look at!

I don't know what's changed - but I'll TAKE IT!

Diagnosis - I don't know!

Here's the deal...I went out running on Saturday to "test out" my leg. 5-miles later, both legs felt sore, but not any worse for the use.

I don't think it's anything major, just some soreness that I need to work through. I soaked in an epsom salt bath almost immediately following the 5-miler. My legs seemed to like it. I was sore the remainder of the day (like walking funny sore) and I was sore on Sunday, but I didn't walk funny. Today, if I flex or move the right way, I can feel them, but otherwise, I feel good.

I feel good.

I am not feeling as discouraged as I was on Friday (or even Saturday morning). I am just feeling cautious. I will treat my legs well for the next few days and see how they fare.

Saturday is the 10k race I signed-up for. (That's 6.2 miles for the layman). I have 2 runs scheduled this week: 4 miles on Tuesday, 3 miles on Thursday. I will take it easy and see how it goes.

I'll keep you posted!

Why me?!?!

It seems that just when I start getting into a routine or in the midst of training, I get injured. I must attract the injury. I do all the right things. I stretch. I warm-up. I follow the training schedules. I don't know what it is.

Now, I'm not sure how bad it is, but I have the ache in my calf that seems to worsen when I run. It's fine otherwise, but after I run, it really hurts. At first, I thought it was just a tight muscle that wouldn't relax. I used Icy Hot and rubbed it down pretty good. It seemed to get better. I took a day off of running. But today, I thought I'd hit the treadmill and see how it feels. It started to ache.

I have a 5-mile training run tomorrow. I'm going to try and see how it goes. If it continues to persist, I guess it's safe to say that it's something more than a sore muscle (which I am praying against). The "something more" is more likely to be a muscle tear - which won't heal for a few weeks - so pray with me for a sore muscle that will be healed quickly!

I'll give an update later in the weekend to let you know how it's going!

A Little Update...

To enliven the pupils of my meager following, I am working on updating my blog - visually.

Since I feel like there's not much to blog about lately, I thought I'd make some changes to the blog-site instead.

Don't get too worried, I am still hitting the gym and I'm on Week 4 of an 8-week training plan to run 10-miles (The Philadelphia Broad Street Run). I am sore and tired - there's not much more to say at this time.

So, for now, check-out my new Nike+ Mini-me to the left...it will update everytime I update my runs!

What the $%^&*!

Starting Weight - 209.2 on 2/6
Week 1 Weight - Unknown
Week 2 Weight - 210.8 lbs. (2/27)
Week 3 Weight - 212.8 lbs. (3/6)
Week 4 Weight - 210.6 lbs (3/12)
Week 5 Weight - 212 lbs (3/20)

Maybe NEXT week - maybe we'll see a negative overall!!!

I registered for my first 10k

This morning, I registered for my first 10k (6.2 miles). I have never raced that specific distance. I know it's completely doable. It's also placed perfectly on my training schedule. That Saturday, I have to run a 10k for training, so why not pay to run and get a free long-sleeve T-Shirt?!!!

I was watching THE BIGGEST LOSER last night. I love that show! And last night was the perfect reason why I love watching it. The challenge - run a half marathon (13.1 miles) with friends and family watching on. I loved it. There was so much inspiration and determination in that 2-hour program. I even shed a tear or two while watching.

I know the feeling and the pain and the pride and the frustration of running a 13.1 mile race. There's so much that you deal with. It was amazing to see illustrated in video and in their own words the struggles that they were dealing with.

I feel a resurgence of running power and adrenaline or maybe it's the decaf I drank this morning...

I have been on track with my running schedule, though I will be honest, I have had a few days that I didn't want to go out. Yesterday was one of them - yet, once I went out, I ran one of the fastest times I've ran in awhile. And my goal was just to put in the mileage - not speed. Who knew!!!

So, today is a cross-training day at the gym. Gonna just have some fun. Maybe, I'll sweat a little bit. Maybe I won't. I just need to burn enough calories to burn off the donut I just consumed.

Yep. I said it - I ate a donut. Not just any donut - a powdered Jelly donut. I know, I know. I'm supposed to be watching my calories and dieting and exercising and all that. But here's what I know about me (no excuses - just fact). If I deny...deny...deny...then I'll binge...binge...binge. I don't mean an all out food-fest, but I'll go days eating all these things that I shouldn't be eating.

There you go. The BIG LOSER truth.

Don't worry - I run 2-3 miles every other day. That's a 350-450 calorie burn for me. Saturdays - I burn over 1000 calories on my long runs. I think a mere donut (1 - 2-3 mile run) won't hurt or harm me !

4 miles down...

Yesterday, I ran 4 miles.

Today, I feel like I ran 4 miles yesterday.

Tomorrow, I run another 4 miles.

Today's results...(week 4)

woohoo!

I lost 2 lbs. exactly from last week's weigh-in.

Woohoo!

Maybe next week - I'll actually get a % of weight loss from the starting point.

Starting Weight - 209.2 on 2/6
Week 1 Weight - Unknown
Week 2 Weight - 210.8 lbs. (2/27) +0.76%
Week 3 Weight - 212.8 lbs. (3/6) +0.95% / +1.72%
Week 4 Weight - 210.6 lbs (3/12) - 1% / +0.67%

Next week - maybe we'll see a negative overall!!!

A Downward Fall...(on the scale that is).

I am finally seeing the numbers on that blasted scale head in the right direction - downward. After the struggles I went through for the past 2 weeks with diet and a lack of desire to care, I've finally found myself where I need to be and feel good about it. It's nice when the scale reflects that hardwork.

I have been in training now for a 10-mile run that will happen on May 3rd. I did my first 3 miles the other day - no real soreness later (yeah!). Today, I will put in 2-miles with some strength training. I am looking forward to that run-time.

There's just something about being outside, running, alone...there's think-time. I imagine myself a racing machine - pressing on towards the finish-line. I feel strong. I feel powerful. I feel....ow, what the...my little toe is going numb. Maybe my sock is bunching...My lungs are screaming - I forgot my inhaler (again)...wait, this is all in my head - just keep running. Breath...Left foot. Right foot. Left...hey, look at that squirrel over there...he's racing me - i'll show hi...ooh, pretty butterfly. Focus.

I am weighing in today for the Biggest Loser Contest at the gym. I feel pretty good about the fact that I will finally see the number go down from last week - it would be great if it went down from day one. It would be a nice reward for the hard-work and diligence (and those daily 1500-calories).

I'll send an update after my visit at noon!

I'm "officially" IN-TRAINING!

I am "officially" in-training for the Broad Street Run.

I have ran a few times over the past few weeks to start building up some of the endurance I need and tonight - I ran my first official 3 miles. I was very surprised at how well I did. I had run in a 5k in November that I tore my arch tendon just yards from the finish line (I tried to "kick-it" those last few yards and it popped).

I've basically just done a lot of cross-training since. No real running - until tonight.

And it feels great!

I don't know what it is about running, but I feel like a machine when I run. My whole body in tune with the motion forward. My core feels really strong. My legs were kicking - even my lungs were participating actively. I'm happy to be running again.

Maybe this is what I need. Maybe this is the kick in the rear that I need. Maybe the Endorphins will make a difference! Maybe just maybe!

Today's results...

I logged in at 209.2 on 2/6.

My first weigh-in - 210.8 lbs. (2/27) +0.01%

Today's weigh-in - 212.8 lbs. (3/6) +0.02%

Hmmmm....I think I'm going the wrong way!

Time for A Change

I guess it's time for a change!

After yesterday's blog entry - I got some challenging words "DO NOT QUIT!" Well, I don't plan on it. I was just having a moment - just keeping it real. I appreciate the encouragement.

I skipped out of work early yesterday for an evening of "full-contact" snowboarding (that's what it's called when I do it) and skiing (which is what I do when I've had enough getting my butt kicked by a wooden plank!). I spent almost 4 hours going up the lift, down the hill. Up the lift, down the hill. It was a well-needed break from "running in place" on the treadmill or "climbing" imaginary steps on the stairmaster. I guess I needed that.

Now I need to focus on getting my diet back in shape. That's an area that has slipped down a slippery slope throughout this whole week. I can use Jedi mind tricks to force myself to the gym, but I have been overdoing it on the 1500-calorie diet. Let's just be honest, there are times when a girl is just hungry and feels the need to eat. I've probably averaged 2000 calories over the past week. Not bad - except, I don't lose weight on a Normal calorie load and going to the gym. I only lose weight on a lower calorie diet and excessive exercise. If only 15 lbs over the period of 1-year isn't proof - I don't know what is.

So, I'll be doing a little "changing up" of the diet in order to get back on track. I'm definitely going to take the advice of one commenter and add some extra fiber into my diet. Hopefully, that will take care of the satiation issues I've been wrestling with over the past few days.

I'll let you know how it goes!

Tomorrow is weigh-in day for the Biggest Loser contest at the gym. Keep your fingers crossed that I actually lost weight this week instead of gaining it...

Can I Quit Yet?

I have had a couple of days where I just want to quit. I realize much of it has to do with "being a female", but it has been very difficult.

I have been ravenous! I just want to eat. I am eating all the right foods and drinking lots of water, but I feel hungry ALL THE TIME.

I have been hitting the gym, but I'm tired and don't want to go. But, I do it anyway.

My sleep patterns have been irregular. I'm constantly tired.

I guess I just need to stop fighting the current and let it carry me for a moment...or two! Fighting it seems too difficult. Giving in is so much easier.

What to do? What to DO!???!

Well, I keep doing what I know is the right thing. I had a few bad days. I pick myself up and keep going. I didn't get overweight from a few bad days - it was a lifetime of decision. So, I guess I need to remind myself that I won't be thin and healthy overnight either.

So I had a bad day...I'm not a quitter.

I will rise from the remnants of these past few days and continue the journey laid out before me. I will continue to go forth - I WILL NOT QUIT!

(At least, that's what I'm telling myself). I'll let you know how it goes...

Physical Fitness never hurt so good!

I've had a pretty rough week of physical fitness. I've done some running, some weight-lifting, some snowboarding.

Right now, I'm sore. My bottom hurts - from falling a lot. My hamstrings are ready to be plucked like a harp. My calf muscle is bruised from being hit by the chair lift at just hte right moment. My back is sore, my neck is sore...I feel the need to just go running....maybe tomorrow.

I got the new sneakers, the I-Pod Nano, some running tights - it's Run FatGirl Run. But let's sleep on it and see how I feel tomorrow.

:)

On Again - Off Again - On .. oh wait - where's the bandwagon?

It has been a bumpy ride as of late. I was doing well for about 2 weeks before I left for vacation. I was counting my calories - consuming around 1550 per day. I was going to the gym at lunchtime. I was headed in the right direction.

Then...

I go home for a week on vacation. I start out right (at least for a day or so). I went to the gym with my sister-in-law, snowboarded for a few hours and ski'd all the next day. Then, the comfort food hit me. S.O.S., mac'n cheese, ribs dripping in BBQ sauce, pasta...it was my belly's heaven - the rest of my body's worst nightmare. By the time I made it back to my own home - I had consumed an insane amount of no-no foods and I was in desperate need of hitting the gym.

Here I am again. I started back to eating the 1550 calorie diet. I have been in the gym everyday so far. I even have started the training for the 10-mile Broad Street Run in May (it's only 10 weeks away!). I don't even want to tell you that my body packed on 6 lbs while I was home - YIKES! Luckily for me, it was a lot of water weight from all the extra sodium and "garbage" I consumed. As much as I can do this on my own - it's difficult to do it away from the home - especially when family is involved!

I have been able to take off 3 of those lbs so far. My hope/goal/dream is to have the other 3 gone by Sunday. Then, we can start the REAL weight-loss.

I am so close to my first landmark goal of 25 lbs loss and with 1 more pound, to be in the 100's. Yet, it seems that goal dances before me, like a sarcastic tease ... nana boobooing me all the way to the scale!

BUT WAIT - my time is coming and it will be here soon!

Vacation VS. THE BIG LOSER!

The BIG LOSER has not been doing as well as planned. I came home with good intentions, but they've gotten me no-where. Today is the first day that I've actually watched everything I ate. It's also the first day I've been away from my parents' home too.

Granted, on the caffeine front, I've drank no coke/pepsi, no coffee. I drank a ton of water and orange juice. I've done a ton of activity, snowboarding and skiing, walking, etc...

I ate a nice helping of Dad's infamous S.O.S., homemade mac'n cheese and ribs, pizza, etc...Not good. But a few bad days will now be overridden by a few good days :)

I have 4 more days at my family's - I stopped at the grocery store and picked up a few helpful snacks - nut mixes, yogurt, apples...I'm having asparagus, brown rice and riblets for dinner...lots of water.

I walked the mall for like an hour today with an old friend from college.

So that's where it's at so far. The scale will tell all when I return...until then...

I'm only 5 pounds from "ONE"-der-land...

I'm only 5 pounds away from "ONE"-der-land (stolen from another weight-loss blog). 5 lbs. Wow! And, I'm doing it the right way.

It's a great motivation to keep going. I don't feel the necessity to "reward" myself with some dietary treat (that will only serve to reverse the reason for the reward), but I feel happy. Just genuinely happy. That is reward in itself.

I am headed to NNY this afternoon for a week. I am a bit concerned. Granted, I've been very good about all that I've accomplished these past 2 weeks, but they were easy in the sense that I ate portioned meals out of a can or box. I measured every bowl of cereal or oatmeal. I ate canned organic soup for lunch and every dinner included a Kashi frozen meal. I plan (at the risk of offending my familial hosts) on purchasing my own meals for the week. Without really knowing what they are cooking (and I'm going to my parents house and they can cook some unbelievable rib-sticking type of meals), I can't go unprepared. I've only been at this for a few weeks seriously and I am concerned I wouldn't know a portion size from a pot-hole (much less the caloric content of whatever they are making).

Maybe the 2 lb additional weight-loss will be the added motivation I need to say "no thank you" and to pass on the homemade mac-n-cheese, scalloped potatoes or dad's infamous S.O.S. with boiled potatoes (no way I'm saying no to that - I will indulge but only after a day of skiing with the family).

Most likely I will pass on the blogging over the next 9 days while I'm out of town. If I get an opportunity, I might add an update on how I'm doing, but otherwise...

...See you in 9 days!

A BIG LOSER Contest!

My gym is hosting a BIGGEST LOSER Contest - beginning on 2/16.

I won't be making it out to the gym next week due to the fact that I will be vacationing in Northern New York the entire week.

I got weighed today "officially" by the Ass't Mgr - 209.2 lbs with shoes on!

Whoohoo! So that's where it all starts.

For the next 10 weeks, I will continue to update on my status and progress - just as I am doing now - only more for the purpose of the contest.

Ok - so the game player in me has already wanted to rear it's ugly head. I had considered "bulking" up this week on Chinese buffets, fast food and anything containing sodium - all for the purpose of puttin' on a few pounds. But alas, the righteous side of me said, "EARN IT!" So what if I can gain 5-10 in water weight in just a few days (totally possible for me). I might lose it in one week, but I've gained, or rather lost, nothing in the long run.

There's more to come...

What am I eating?

So maybe you're wondering, "hmm, I wonder what the BIG LOSER eats and still stays around 1500 calories?".

Ok - so you're probably not thinking that, but just for kicks, I'll list yesterdays menu:

FOOD
Instant, Quick, and Regular Oats Cereal, 0.5 cup, dry, yields 148
Blueberries, frozen (unsweetened), 0.25 cup, unthawed 20
Health Valley 14 Garden Vegetable Fat Free Soup, 2 cup 160
Lays Potato Chips, Classic, 1 oz 150
Skinny Cow Chocolate Ice Cream Sandwich, 1 serving 140
Black Olives, 1 jumbo 7
Kashi Mayan Harvest Bake, 1 serving 340
Raisins, 1 small box (1.5 oz) 129
Girl Scout Thin Mints, 1 serving 160
Apples, fresh, 1 medium (2-3/4in. dia) (approx 3 per lb) 81
Organic Valley Stringles, 1 oz 90
Organic Probiotic Fat Free Yogurt - Strawberry, 1 serving 90

That makes for a grand total of 1515 calories! So that's how I do it. AS you can see, I don't deny myself those little pleasures (chips, GS cookies). I just count them!

My shortfall though, if you were to dig deeper, is that I need more protein and a few less carbs. I'm working on it. Today, instead of raisins, I am adding a handful of mixed nuts with cranberries. That adds another 7g of protein and reduces carbs by 16g.

In case you're wondering (again I don't expect you to), I have still been going to the gym. Tuesdays and Thursdays are strength-training days. Yesterday, I did a pretty intense strength-training circuit that is leaving me very sore today in my back and upper legs. Today, I am in for some cardio. 20-30 minutes of intense, pulse-racing, sweat-producing, lung capicity increasing, cardio. I should burn close to 300 calories!

I did notice a decrease in the scale today. It was modest, but nonetheless a decrease. I made the change in my ruler above.

Hey, thanks for reading. Maybe you'll find some encouragement in my wordy-words today!